Twin Talk News

This is one of those posts where you know how it's going to end but you have no idea how to get there.  

For almost two years, I've referred to Twin Talk as my third child.  It's been one of the most exciting, rewarding, and (if I'm being honest) time-consuming projects I've ever encountered.  I remember so well the feeling of isolation when I found out I was expecting twins.  From that very moment, it was my goal to create a place where no twin mom would ever feel alone.  My prayer was Twin Talk could be an outlet for fellow moms to learn, to grow, to meet new people, to share experiences, to love one another for all of our similarities and, even more so, our differences.  

My twins turned three last week and as they blew out their candles, I couldn't help but think of how far they've come in the last few years.  I wrote a short post about it on Instagram that I'd like to include here...

Three years ago I was lying in a hospital bed with two tiny infants and absolutely no clue what I was doing. I was terrified and excited, exhausted and full of adrenaline. I knew I'd never experienced this type of love - the type that after knowing them a mere 15 seconds I realized I would do anything to keep them safe. I was so scared of the future and scared of what type of mother I'd be.

Tonight we put these babies to bed with a casual familiarity that felt like a favorite worn book. I put Sloane's "magic carpet" (pillowcase) back on her pillow, told Jude we could look at more shadows tomorrow, and belted out "Jesus Loves Me" without feeling awkward or unsure. 

In three short years, what was once so daunting in my head is now second nature. I hope I never become too comfortable with this mom gig, but to all of the expecting moms or new moms who may have the same feelings I had three years ago, take heart. No one in the world loves them or knows them like you do. Like you will.

I feel the same about Twin Talk.  What I originally set out to do was so scary in my head and has now become part of my daily routine.  However, I'm past so many of the difficulties new twin moms face that I feel my perspective is no longer relevant.  Late night feedings, sleep training, and tummy time were so long ago.  I feel I've offered every bit of me to this dear blog and now it makes sense for me to step down.

I am so incredibly grateful for the people I've met on this amazing journey.  From fellow twin moms who I now consider best friends, to shops who've generously given away products they've made with tired hands, to moms who've poured out their hearts in late night emails filled with concern for their babies... You all have made my heart so full.  And every time I've had a doubt about Twin Talk, one of you has gone out of your way to let me know this blog matters to you.

While I haven't fully decided next steps, I do know there are a few previously scheduled posts and a ton of twin birth stories that still need to be shared.  If you took the time to write it, I have full plans to publish it. The twin birth stories have always been the heartbeat of Twin Talk and my hope is they will continue to encourage pregnant twin moms and allow the rest of us to remember those sweet first moments.

I have learned so much from each of you and am blessed to be a part of the strongest community of women I've ever met.  Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU.